Hungry and Disorderly

Oh my, folks.  Let me tell you about this weekend.  Well, to preface, let me tell you that I bake like Betty Crocker.  I'm seriously an amazing baker, and when I bake something, I can't help but to partake.  And so on Friday night, as a gift to my husband for being an amazing man, I baked chocolate chip cookies.  52 of them.

I think that 35 of them may have found their way to my stomach over the course of my three-day weekend.  I'm not exaggerating or trying to be funny...I actually think that happened.  I say that because there were only about 15 cookies left as of this morning, and I just didn't see Hubs eating as many as I did.  Well, that and the fact that Hubs just doesn't binge-eat like I do.  Oh, and on Sunday morning Hubs brought me a donut back from the coffee shop, and I scarfed that as well.  If it weren't for the cookies and the donut it would have been a successful weekend.

Hmmm...okay, that's kind of a lie.  Because Friday, Saturday, Sunday, and Monday night, about an hour before we fell asleep, I binged like a starving animal.  Well, maybe it doesn't quite classify as bingeing, but I ate a LOT.  Potato chips, pretty much as many as I could shove in my mouth over a 15 minute period; mixed nuts, which were so delicious and salty and salty and delicious; did I mention chocolate chip cookies?  Oh, and caramel corn, tons of it.  And last night - the piece de resistance - there was pretty much nothing left in our pantry so I found a box of crackers we got in a gift basket for Christmas and pretty much ate three-quarters of those.

Wow, this was like confession. 

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Today has been more successful on paper, but not mentally.  I had a good fiber-filled breakfast, a great fruit- and veggie-filled lunch, and I have an apple and a cheese stick for my commute snack.  But mentally and physically...and I really think it's both, though more mental when it comes to what I choose to eat...I'm ravenous.  I want to eat and eat and eat until the horrible food demon inside of me shuts the hell up, I want him to feel satisfied for once, and I want him to leave me alone.  He's like the monkey on my back that I keep feeding so he'll quiet down, only perpetuating the cycle.  Fucking monkey can kiss my ass.

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And that was cathartic.

Happy Tuesday, folks.  Send good vibes out into the universe for me to have a better week, would ya?  ;)

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Oh, and how could I forget?  I lost two more pounds last week, bringing me down 5 pounds in two weeks.  Not bad, except that I probably undid most of that over the last four days.  Boo!!!

Blindness? Death?

Happy Friday, folks!  This is just a very quick check-in to say that I weighed in today and lost 3 pounds.  This takes me down to a whopping....oh, damn it.  I just still can't write that number!  Instead, I'll leave you with a few pictures from vacation last week.  We were snowshoeing up to a point called Artist's Bluff in Franconia Notch in the White Mountains of New Hampshire.  This hike is just enough to get the heart pumping in the spring, summer, and fall...but in the winter on a pair of snowshoes it's WORK!  And it was a great time.  :)

That's pretty much a 45 degree angle.  (I was a physics minor...I'm not exaggerating!)

See that rock up there?  That's the high point, and that's where we eventually ended up.

Hubs took this picture.  Snowshoeing this really was a fun time.

And the view is ALWAYS worth it.  :)



In other news, my eye is STILL blurry.  I went to the ophthalmologist for a follow-up yesterday and he said, "Yeah, that's definitely not a corneal abrasion.  I don't know what it is, but it's definitely not that.  You'll see our corneal specialist next week."

Boy, when someone is talking about your eye, you really don't want to hear them say "I don't know what it is".  LOL  Ah well...nothing to do but wait until Wednesday to see the specialist and hope I don't go blind or die before then.

Enjoy the weekend!!!  :)

Return of the Purple Monster

Happy Wednesday, folks!  First and foremost, thanks to the few and the proud who welcomed me back.  :)  It was so nice to see that you guys were still here!  Barbara, you were right about that blogging every day thing...that's way too ambitious for me!  It's evidenced by the fact that I said I'd be blogging daily starting Monday, and now it's Wednesday.  You've probably noticed that I didn't post my weight, but that's because I'm not weighing in until Friday. I figure that instead of traumatizing myself, I'll get on the scale after 5 days of peeing and pooing and getting on the wagon a bit. It's just better for my mental health that way.


Things have been going quite well since Monday.  Lots of good food, 5-9 fruits and veggies, and I'm finally pooing normally again.  Sorry if that's too much, but I gotta tell you...a great way for me to tell if my diet sucks is whether I'm pooing or not.  When I don't get enough fruits or veggies, everything likes to stay in my cozy digestive tract, which makes me uncomfortable and angry.  So yay for a normal poo schedule!  My only challenge lately - well, since the summer, really - has been getting in 64 ounces of water a day.  I was always so good with that, but since July I've been doing all outpatient work, and I just don't have the kind of time I had before to use the bathroom.  Isn't that pathetic?  But seriously, if I peed as much as I do when I drink all that water, I'd never get out of work on time.  So I've been getting in about 52 or so...not terrible, but I could do better.  I've also upped my coffee intake from 20 ounces to 40 ounces, but they say an extra cup or two is good for you.  ;)  I certainly feel more alert!

Some of you might remember when I tried my hand at blending fruits and veggies into a smoothie and came up with the Purple Monster.  Well, it's back and better than ever!  I took a few pictures of it because I was proud of how healthy it looked.  The pictures suck, but luckily this isn't a photography blog.

Here it is chilling out in the blender:

For two Purple Monsters (Hubs wanted one!) - 2 cups of unsweetened vanilla almond milk, 2 big handfuls of spinach, 2 bananas, and 2 cups of frozen blueberries.  It was seriously awesome!

Here it is all blended up and looking lovely:

Oh my gosh, it was so good.  I really enjoyed it!

Interesting tidbit:  Hubs and I were in the White Mountains last week doing some snowshoeing.  On Thursday I bent down to tighten my strap while we were hiking and a stick poked me right in the eye.  I said, "If I didn't have more respect for nature I'd break that f*cking thing in half."  Well, Mother Nature heard me.  I started having photosensitivity and tearing of my eye on Saturday, and when I finally went to the ophthalmologist on Monday (because it was still horrible) I found out I have a nasty corneal abrasion.  So now I'm on antibiotics for it.  So anyway, my vision was a little blurry and I was cutting something on Monday night with our Ginsu knife...and I went nearly through the tip of my finger.  It was absolutely ridiculous.  So I have a corneal abrasion, I'm on Augmentin for a sinus infection (that's already cleared), and I have a Band-Aid on my left index finger covering a gross wound.  Which leads me to...

Fun fact o' the day:  Yesterday at work I smelled marijuana all morning.  I thought all of my patients were smoking pot.  You know what it was though?  It was the smell of my Band-Aid.  Yep, my Band-Aid (a clean one, mind you, not a grody old dirty one) smelled like marijuana.  Who knew?

Goodnight!  :)

Knock, knock: Who's there?

Oh, it's just me.  ;)

I've been a bad blogger.  I've also been a bad dieter!  One of my New Year's resolutions?  Just like millions of other people, I will be eating healthier and finally reaching my goal weight in 2011!  And maybe NOT like millions of other people, I will be blogging every day, so please stay tuned.  I know I don't have tons of readers, but for the few that stayed with me, I hope you're still here...and I hope you'll stick with me for 2011.  :)

Oh, ummm...this will be starting January 3rd.  LOL!  See you Monday!